Just some random thinking

I haven't been on here in a while. Just got done reading my past posts, and deleting some. A lots changed since I last wrote. But then again some things are still the same. Sometimes we get so caught up in the now of things and wonder how we got to a certain point in our lives. So to be able to come back here and actually read what i was going through reminds me that I've come a long way. Reading this make me realize how unhappy i was. How frustrated i was with life. Now I'm all smiles and ready for something new to happen. It wasn't easy getting here but I'm here now. I think one of the hardest things I've gone through is learning to let go. I almost got engaged this year. Now that i think about it that would have been the wrong move. I'm so not ready for that. But after the breakup it was hard to let that dream go. I'm not the type of girl that use to dream of her wedding as a kid. But when I actually thought it was going to happen I started buying and watching everything that had to do with weddings. I was ready for it or at least i thought so. Then all the sudden it was ripped away from me. Now i know everyone has gone through this. Its that stage in life where we feel lost and wonder what are we suppose to be doing. I went through it after high school, and now I'm going through it again. But I'm figuring it out. I'm not completely lost anymore. And now i don't feel so alone. I've got amazing friends and an awesome family. I may not know where I'm going exactly but i know where I've been. So the future has to be better!