I'm just tired

I don't feel like myself lately. It's hard to put into words what this feels like. I just feel so drained and angry all the time. Until my heart and mind have a battle and I slip into depression which is happening more and more these days. It's getting harder to hide it too. I've had more people ask me what's wrong in the past week than I've had my entire life. Part of me what's to talk about just so I can find some release. But the anger is starting to surface and I have hulk smash moments. I don't like myself or anyone for that matter. I feel the need to hit things/people more often. I don't, for those of you wondering. I don't even expect people to really read this. I mean why would you? I'm no one important or interesting to listen to. I'm just some weirdo who can't give anything anymore. I've always given my heart, trust and faith in others freely. I love easily, therefore I love hard. I'm not perfect, trust me, I have a friend who reminds me almost daily how needy and obnoxious I am. I'm just tired, I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of loving, I'm tired of giving. And once you get to feeling this way, no one wants to be around you. You have nothing to offer people anymore. I'm a horrible mother, daughter, sister, aunt and friend. I'm sorry for that but I have nothing to give to you people anymore.