Ever since I can remember depression has always been something i struggle with. I can be happy life is great for a long time. But I have times like this weekend where all I want to is lay in bed and cry. Actually if I could I'd be under my bed because its darker. Its hard to deal with because I don't want to be around anyone but at the same time I do. It was easier when I was a loner and didn't have but 2 friends. So I guess I'm apologizing because it does effect the way I interact with people. You may think I have an attitude or am being needy. But you have no idea the pain I'm feeling in my chest. I can feel my heart hurting because its in a battle with its self. I know on a normal day I can be difficult so on these days its extreme. I'm about to leave the comfort of my room and I'm about to have a meltdown because of it. But I know I have to, I mean I have to go to work in 3 hours.
So just so you know, anyone who is gonna have to deal with me today or till I get out of this funk. Everything in me hurts but I'm gonna keep going. Hopefully
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