A Sad Girls Broken Heart

Break ups are never fun, I mean have you seen the movie The Break-Up!? Yea they suck! But what sucks most are the its probably for the best or you'll find someone better or maybe this was suppose to happen! HELLO!!! Do you think if i knew that was the case i wouldn't be crying! I wouldn't care so much!! But the truth is I don't know for sure if its for the best, I don't know if someone better will come along, and I freakin don't know if it was suppose to happen. All I know is i'm crying, he's gone and that's it!! Ok now i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad about trying to console a friend who's going through a break up. I mean really what can you say to someone? Fact is I don't believe in Mr. Right, nor do I believe in Mr. Right Now! They don't exist, stop trying to look for them. Pretty much if the guy or girl is right for you, you'll know becuz they stick around. Its funny that someone people believe in the whole Mr. Right Now becuz we all know we at some point thought he'd stick around. You can't sit there and tell me you didn't hope you would be the one he'd change for. We all do/did! Fun fact, if he doesn't change for you willingly and by himself..... HE NEVER WILL!!! Thats when you move on and let him go!!! If he doesn't want you fine, on to the next one! Becuz you know if you don't you'll be sitting around wishing he'd call or text or just show up. I posted about girls like that on my Facebook! Some times i just want to punch em right in the face! Until i realize i'm one of them! Then i want to punch myself in the face, lol!! Gah, and what i hate most is when you have the conversations in your head. When you make up what they'll say. It all works out in your head but the actual conversation never does! And whats sad is you knew it would really end that way but you still hope for the best. So what do you do? How do you move forward? How do you let those feelings go? When you find the answer to these questions let me know! Becuz I have no frickin idea! Good luck not thinking about him! Good luck trying to forget when he told you, he really liked you and thought about you all the time. Good luck trying to forget all the fun you guys had together just chillin and doin nothing. Good frickin luck moving on! Seriously good luck you're gonna need it! It's not easy letting it go. Especially when you thought things were different with him. When you thought that this could actually turn out to be something amazing. And all that happened is the same thing thats always happened. You end up right back in the friend zone!

Listen i'm not trying to bash anyone. I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad. I'm just saying I've been here/there before. Actually more than a few times. Its either me putting him in the friend zone or its him putting me there. Becuz if i was truly honest with him I'd have said I was scared of commitment too. That I didn't feel worthy of him. That I've been praying for him every night. That I knew i was probably being overly affectionate. That I knew I was pressuring him. That everytime I asked a question i analyed the way it was answered. That I knew we were heading to an end and I desparately tried to fight it. That the moment you closed the door it felt like someone took all the air out of the room and my heart broke into a million pieces. That even though I shouldn't I'm not going anywhere, so if you ever need me I'm only a call/text away. That bing with anyone else would feel like settle for less than what we had.