my hopeless romance

I'm not someone who can easily hide my feelings. And I'm pretty sure everyone that knows me knows its true. I get it from my dad, lol, love ya daddy! Have you ever had someone in your life that you thought about all the time? Someone you believe you could spend all your time with. Its like they become your best friend all the sudden. You start to feel like you can tell them practically everything and anything. I had that once. He became everything and i didn't believe he could do anything wrong. He was perfect in my eyes. But he always kept me at a distance and yet close enough to feel like i was still wanted. I use to say he was that one guy for me. The one I'd always go back to and the one I'd compare every other guy to. Then a year and half ago reality finally set in. He was never gonna be mine. No matter how long I waited it would never happen. We were just....friends. O my gosh the devastation to my heart when that became reality. How do you move one from that!? I mean seriously, like, you give yourself so fully to something and then realize its nothing. Its, its so wrong, and its so sad how we as humans fall so easily for a glimpse of what we believe to be our fairy tale. I mean, come seriously I was 18 when i met him and he was suppose to be my Knight in shining armor!?!? Of course he was i was a baby! But what i didn't see what i didn't know was I couldn't have a real relationship because i was always thinking of him. I was always thinking who ever i with wasn't who i wanted him to be. Because i believed I had already found my Prince Charming. So now that I've realized what i missed out on i have a choice. I can either sit here and continue in this fantasy belief or I can get up and move on. Not saying hes a bad guy. He was perfect! But now i get to use my corny line, he's just not perfect for me. I'm refusing to have another failed relationship all because i live in a fantasy world. i still believe in fairy tales. And trust me I'm going to have mine but its just not right now. Or maybe it is. Who knows!? God and life have never fully given all the answers. But it does say all things work for my good. So even though I've been through a lot of bad, good is not far away. I think my heart has been broken so much but only so it can get stronger. I once posted that you have to break a muscle to make it stronger. So what does your heart say about you? Yes I may love easily but that's because I know what real heart ache feels like. And I'd rather love than not know what it feels like to be loved. I want you to see it and feel it than think I don't care. Everyone deserves the chance to have love in their life. So if I can be that light then awesome. If you are going through what Ive just talked about please know you have to walk away. Know the difference between real love and what you think is love. Because I'll be completely honest, being able to look in someones eyes and know they're the only one on your mind is amazing. I've never felt life this, I'm not saying I'm in love, NO!! LOL!!! But i am able to be in a moment and really be there. My mind is clear and my focus is set. Other than the normal (God and Miles) there's only one person on my mind. And i think that's how it should be. Unless you think you playa! In which, YA TRICK!!! LOL!! yes i just went there, i pulled the Medea! haha!! ok I'm done, I'm done! Leaving on a serious note.... Whats done is done, you cant change anything in the past. But you have a choice to change your future. The only question is who/what is stopping you!? Think on it! If you want respond! I'm open to the conversation! Its my favorite one! LOVE YOU GUYS!!!