it's not time for reality just yet!

Is it possible to have friends with benefits? Answer, ALE NO!!!! Fact of the matter is when it comes down to it there is no benefit. You think you're getting one situation which is just two friends spending time together and doing things a couple would do without the title of a being a couple. Until one day you find out one of you has been talking to someone else. Then you realize you have feeling for them. And then things get complicated. I mean you go into this with the agreement that things wouldn't get weird, no one would become attached, and you wouldn't hold the other back from being with someone else. But reality is once you go there with a person, intentional or not, feelings are exchanged. And once that happens its nearly impossible not to be weird around each other. So what should you do? How do you get back to just being friends? How do you let go of your feelings? Is it even possible? Same question as in my last post, should you tell them how you really feel? I mean its no surprise, right, they knew you already had feelings. But you made the agreement to not that interfere with things. So now what? Is honesty the best policy? You don't want to lose this person, they've come to mean too much to you. But being honest is risking losing them. Is it worth losing them? yea the worst thing to hear is no. But if that's all you've ever heard, you're just wishing for one yes.

i don't know i think the hardest thing we face is accepting that not everyone is going to stay in our lives. no matter how hard you try to keep people happy they'll always leave. Ever have that one way conversation in your head where you're talking to them and they say everything you want to hear. That's our problem right there. I mean are we gonna go the rest of our lives pretending things aren't or are really happening. It's funny and sad at the same time, I've had those conversations one too many times. And whats funny is I never really say what i want to say when i get the chance to actually talk to the person face to face. And its also whats sad. So much goes unsaid between people. Why is that? Why can't i just say what i want to say? Why do we allow the fear of what would really happen scare us from being honest? People come and go, if they don't want to stay in your life let em go right? Don't worry I know, I don't want to let them go either. Decisions, decisions they just suck sometimes. lol! Still can't figure mine out but at the same time i don't want to. i don't want to know what the reality would be just yet. I'm loving my fantasy and where its not going right now. Don't judge me! :-)