Baby Update!!

So i'm now 31 weeks, which means next week i'll be 8 months!!! I love feeling him kick!!! Though at times i want to kick back...lol!! I'm still amazed at how women do this. I'm so scared to actually give birth. I joke with people and pretend to not really care. But reality is, I'm terrified!! I don't know how i'm gonna do it. I want to give birth naturally but a c-section sounds super awesome..lol!! And i really don't have time to think about it. I wish someone else could do it for me :-)! Oh, and not to mention i'm having fake contractions. So i know i'll be crying when those start to be real. But really all i can think about is Jaylin! I hope he knows how much i love him. I wish i could see his little face and kiss it!! Hold his hand and tickle his toes!! I want to hold my baby so much!! Even though i'll get sick and tired of it i want to hear his crying. You think you know what love is until you have a baby. I'm telling you I'm not the same person. My outlook has changed so much. Being an aunt is cool and trust it has it perks but being a mommy...that's different. I can't even describe it and i won't try. Anyways that's it for now!! Laterz